Wow what an incredible last couple of weeks I have had. I just didn't have the heart to post until I got a grasp on what is going on. It has been 2 years of declaring prosperity and debtfreeness over our house hold. We have been praying for the "biz" to prosper and our finances to be better with less debt and more money at the end of the week. We have been praying for a "change" in our inheritance for our children. That our children would be a part of a prospering family. For some reading this I should maybe explain this is not about getting rich and buying toys. This is not about money although at times money it is the root to our troubles. This is simply about walking in the plans the Lord has for us and prospering in it. I will say that after 2 years we are a little less in debt. So thats good. Although there is no money left over. So let me tell you about the last 2-3 weeks...
About 2 months ago (haha I know I said 2-3 weeks- just bear w/ me) are blue chip healthcare got denied for the kids and we were told that medicade would get it and deny it and boot it back to blue chip but medicade decided to accept it. Yea for us. So I spent the last 6 weeks fighting it. Most of this occured because of our taxes and owning a business and write-offs and bla bla bla.
The day before the final day of debating this with a "caseworker" I really felt the Lord saying to me - I need to stop accepting a poverty mentality. I'm like "Lord is that you?" "c'mon how can i not have a poverty mentality when we are excepting public welfare? bla! I really went around and around w/ Papa about this. Of course he won. A few days before I had this flashing thought "how dirty are you willing to get?" whoa.. what was that? then i heard it again... " where are willing to go for me?"... man this wrecked me. I was like Lord I will go where you tell me to go... where ever that may be.- i meant it. and i still do. So then I had complete peace w/ accepting this medicade. So I spent the day on the phone figuring out the new doctors and moving records around. We havent been to the new dr. yet but its in the "big city". I checked it out and well its not going to be... well better like this... " toto were not in Kansa anymore" that is for sure. But I have complete peace about it. Its all very weird.
I heard this phrase "everything in the kingdom is upside down" well I believe there is a "shift"taking place now! Here! My family. I keep hearing this over and over again" Get ready for a shift" .
Now the next part I am going to share w/ you - I feel like I should but please- do not take pity or whatever I just feel there is someone that needs to read this. These last 3 weeks have been the most intense finacially we have gone through. I'm not really sure because its been worse. A good friend asked me "so hows it going?" BOY was that the wrong thing to say to me. I was like bla blba bla about healthcare and bills and money and in between all of that I was like " I felt like the Lord said to me "Ask me where I want to take the "biz". and bla bla bla. So my friend was like uh are you applying that to your own situation at home w/ money and bills and whatever....?
um yea um NO! WOW was that like turning on the lightbulb. Thankyou friend for being obeidiant to the Lord and what you are sensing. Papa has so been triing to convey this to me and I sooooo just was not getting this. Man did I repent on my knees. And so the next couple of weeks we have been livin on total faith. And I am so thankful of Gods grace on me. All I can say is we have had no money to buy food and my oven is down and that was all offered to be taken care of this week. I cant think of next week but I am trusting in the Lord for today and next week he will take care of that too. Its a growing list of things that need fixed or replaced or whatever... I am seeking him first - his kingdom. I think this all a must in order to "shift". I have never been in this place before. Its extrememly uncomfortable. But I have this very weird peace. ( which is totally God) but its also extrememly exhilarating. not sure if that makes sence at all but.... thats just where we are at. Well thats it for now. There really is so much more to share - oh wait 1 more thing. The last 2 years i have been waking up at 3:40- which I felt meant complete trial. This past spring there was a "shift" to 3:41. complete the fullness of promises. And these past couple of weeks its been crazy stuff like 11:11 change change and 11:41 and 1:11 and every combo of these #"s . I felt like I was getting a little obsessed about it and I have been triing not to look at the clock and so when I do its been these #'s only. And Ive seen them other places- like my pager at church this past saturday and the total at the grocery store or I dont even remember. I feel like our family is cresting - at the point of breakthrough. I am declaring it! I know it will come. ok now I'm done.
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Amen! that was a total faith lifter for me as well...Thank you for sharing. We have had prophesy over us about financial blessing and wealth. But have yet to see TOTAL breakthrough. So this was meant for me. Also we too were denied from Chip and sent to medicaid just in June of this year.
ReplyDeletewow! KK i didnt know that! blue chip is really so great! so its frustrating to have to give that up and move 4 kids to a new dr and dentist. we will have to talk. like where you are taking the kids and all that. i think that is so awesome that you have been prophesied over. i was given 2 prophesies and one was about establishing a covenant and about my ministry(well sorta) so we havent been told we are going to be blessed financially - but i keep reading Jer 29:11 and i total peace. thanks for sharing girl - we should talk soon- i have questions for you!
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