Its Friday! A long way from Monday! Can I just tell you! Wow! I am going to tell you and I'm not sure if I can completely explain it but.... something is different. The atmoshpere has changed. Some sort of shift has happend - whether it was in the heavenlys or here on earth or just in my house. I can feel it. Things were not so good last week. Very intense. Now its like its just melting away.
I had some incredible dreams this week and visitations - that I am not going to share but that I feel has triggered this.
We have been praying for breakthrough for 2 years. Yes 2 years and the last year and a half has been intense.
I dont know but I think we are at the point of entry. It sure feels like it!
Am i being evasive? ummm lets see.... yes I am. I love blogging even if no one reads it! Its such a great way to sort and clear my mind.
Lets start with Monday night or Tuesday morning.... I had a dream that I believed turn into a visistation of angels. Well that was enough to change my perspesctive. Every nite since I have had revelatory dreams. So now this is getting exciting. I'm not sure what it all meant and I am praying for revelation. But to explain it a little better its like I have been in the sahara desert. And its starting to rain. And this morning I was reading Isaiah 41:17-20 which talks about the poor and needy in search of water- trust me just read the scripture. I was like oh wow I never saw that before. This describes me. hmmmm.
We have been praying for breakthrough and 2 times this week the words jumped off a page of a book or newspaper or something like that. I was like hmmm thats never happened before- I havent seen those words in anything Ive been reading.
We have been waiting to hear back from the bank for loans and other things that would help grow the biz and also solve our timing issues being that we are a small biz. I had a dream yesterday we were denied and when the bank called and said we would have to front cash or cd's - I really wasn't surprised. So I was like ok Lord this is all in your hands.
Because of the economy the banks are not giving free money unless you have lots in collateral or whatever. Lets just say someone w/ lots of what they need stepped in and said what ever you need- I support you and will do whatever to see your biz grow.
Ok uh .... hmmm. ok ... WOW! this is huge! But then I was like Lord the dream. And I felt like he said The dream was only part of it. If I didnt want this I would have hardend his heart so He wouldn't have offered. oh ok.
So the end of the week is much different then the beginning and the week isn't over . Yea God.
I feel like the Lord is saying "lets get something started".
Can you feel it? I really think something in the atmosphere has changed... just sayin.
Friday, October 23, 2009
Monday, October 19, 2009
Lord what is in store for us this week?
Wow we survived! What a crazy week! Talk about a shakin! Can I just tell you that several weeks ago we declared as husband and wife that we would seek "his" kingdom first. When we need help we wouldn't ask or tell but come to Papa. And so the testing has begun.
First our oven stopped working and is still NOT but I have a long time old friend coming to fix it. Then our land line phone quit working and yes like I told my husband I did pay the bill. And then Friday night my van died ( thank you Jesus it was only the battery ). Can anyone relate? Well thats not all. We were cashless and no food (well basics like bread, milk, meat).
I know I probably come across basically optimistic. I cried a lot! The week before it was about paying our utilities so they wouldnt be shut off and by the end of the week it was everything else. Hey it could have been much worse! Really! Last week the Lord provided money to go to the store, he showed Kevin what was wrong with the phone so he could fix it and the van.
This is one of the most incredible times that we are living in. As a family. We have never indured so much. I can't explain it but I feel like a super hero super natural strength). Like a survivor. Papa came and he provided. And it was amazing!
Maybe to some it doesn't seem like much. But when everything else is taken away - what is left - you are so grateful for! Even the smallest- which in our case was huge!
So this morning as I was sitting at the computer this all dawned at me. Wow we survived. We are still alive! Yea God! Then I was thinking oh Lord. What will this week bring? sigh.... all I can say is Father I love you and I will love you no matter what. Maybe breakthrough will happen this week. Maybe it won't... but I am not going to stop praying or believing. We are going to keep pushing through. Even when I feel like quitting... I' m not! My trust is in you Lord all day long!
First our oven stopped working and is still NOT but I have a long time old friend coming to fix it. Then our land line phone quit working and yes like I told my husband I did pay the bill. And then Friday night my van died ( thank you Jesus it was only the battery ). Can anyone relate? Well thats not all. We were cashless and no food (well basics like bread, milk, meat).
I know I probably come across basically optimistic. I cried a lot! The week before it was about paying our utilities so they wouldnt be shut off and by the end of the week it was everything else. Hey it could have been much worse! Really! Last week the Lord provided money to go to the store, he showed Kevin what was wrong with the phone so he could fix it and the van.
This is one of the most incredible times that we are living in. As a family. We have never indured so much. I can't explain it but I feel like a super hero super natural strength). Like a survivor. Papa came and he provided. And it was amazing!
Maybe to some it doesn't seem like much. But when everything else is taken away - what is left - you are so grateful for! Even the smallest- which in our case was huge!
So this morning as I was sitting at the computer this all dawned at me. Wow we survived. We are still alive! Yea God! Then I was thinking oh Lord. What will this week bring? sigh.... all I can say is Father I love you and I will love you no matter what. Maybe breakthrough will happen this week. Maybe it won't... but I am not going to stop praying or believing. We are going to keep pushing through. Even when I feel like quitting... I' m not! My trust is in you Lord all day long!
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
get ready for the shift...
Wow what an incredible last couple of weeks I have had. I just didn't have the heart to post until I got a grasp on what is going on. It has been 2 years of declaring prosperity and debtfreeness over our house hold. We have been praying for the "biz" to prosper and our finances to be better with less debt and more money at the end of the week. We have been praying for a "change" in our inheritance for our children. That our children would be a part of a prospering family. For some reading this I should maybe explain this is not about getting rich and buying toys. This is not about money although at times money it is the root to our troubles. This is simply about walking in the plans the Lord has for us and prospering in it. I will say that after 2 years we are a little less in debt. So thats good. Although there is no money left over. So let me tell you about the last 2-3 weeks...
About 2 months ago (haha I know I said 2-3 weeks- just bear w/ me) are blue chip healthcare got denied for the kids and we were told that medicade would get it and deny it and boot it back to blue chip but medicade decided to accept it. Yea for us. So I spent the last 6 weeks fighting it. Most of this occured because of our taxes and owning a business and write-offs and bla bla bla.
The day before the final day of debating this with a "caseworker" I really felt the Lord saying to me - I need to stop accepting a poverty mentality. I'm like "Lord is that you?" "c'mon how can i not have a poverty mentality when we are excepting public welfare? bla! I really went around and around w/ Papa about this. Of course he won. A few days before I had this flashing thought "how dirty are you willing to get?" whoa.. what was that? then i heard it again... " where are willing to go for me?"... man this wrecked me. I was like Lord I will go where you tell me to go... where ever that may be.- i meant it. and i still do. So then I had complete peace w/ accepting this medicade. So I spent the day on the phone figuring out the new doctors and moving records around. We havent been to the new dr. yet but its in the "big city". I checked it out and well its not going to be... well better like this... " toto were not in Kansa anymore" that is for sure. But I have complete peace about it. Its all very weird.
I heard this phrase "everything in the kingdom is upside down" well I believe there is a "shift"taking place now! Here! My family. I keep hearing this over and over again" Get ready for a shift" .
Now the next part I am going to share w/ you - I feel like I should but please- do not take pity or whatever I just feel there is someone that needs to read this. These last 3 weeks have been the most intense finacially we have gone through. I'm not really sure because its been worse. A good friend asked me "so hows it going?" BOY was that the wrong thing to say to me. I was like bla blba bla about healthcare and bills and money and in between all of that I was like " I felt like the Lord said to me "Ask me where I want to take the "biz". and bla bla bla. So my friend was like uh are you applying that to your own situation at home w/ money and bills and whatever....?
um yea um NO! WOW was that like turning on the lightbulb. Thankyou friend for being obeidiant to the Lord and what you are sensing. Papa has so been triing to convey this to me and I sooooo just was not getting this. Man did I repent on my knees. And so the next couple of weeks we have been livin on total faith. And I am so thankful of Gods grace on me. All I can say is we have had no money to buy food and my oven is down and that was all offered to be taken care of this week. I cant think of next week but I am trusting in the Lord for today and next week he will take care of that too. Its a growing list of things that need fixed or replaced or whatever... I am seeking him first - his kingdom. I think this all a must in order to "shift". I have never been in this place before. Its extrememly uncomfortable. But I have this very weird peace. ( which is totally God) but its also extrememly exhilarating. not sure if that makes sence at all but.... thats just where we are at. Well thats it for now. There really is so much more to share - oh wait 1 more thing. The last 2 years i have been waking up at 3:40- which I felt meant complete trial. This past spring there was a "shift" to 3:41. complete the fullness of promises. And these past couple of weeks its been crazy stuff like 11:11 change change and 11:41 and 1:11 and every combo of these #"s . I felt like I was getting a little obsessed about it and I have been triing not to look at the clock and so when I do its been these #'s only. And Ive seen them other places- like my pager at church this past saturday and the total at the grocery store or I dont even remember. I feel like our family is cresting - at the point of breakthrough. I am declaring it! I know it will come. ok now I'm done.
About 2 months ago (haha I know I said 2-3 weeks- just bear w/ me) are blue chip healthcare got denied for the kids and we were told that medicade would get it and deny it and boot it back to blue chip but medicade decided to accept it. Yea for us. So I spent the last 6 weeks fighting it. Most of this occured because of our taxes and owning a business and write-offs and bla bla bla.
The day before the final day of debating this with a "caseworker" I really felt the Lord saying to me - I need to stop accepting a poverty mentality. I'm like "Lord is that you?" "c'mon how can i not have a poverty mentality when we are excepting public welfare? bla! I really went around and around w/ Papa about this. Of course he won. A few days before I had this flashing thought "how dirty are you willing to get?" whoa.. what was that? then i heard it again... " where are willing to go for me?"... man this wrecked me. I was like Lord I will go where you tell me to go... where ever that may be.- i meant it. and i still do. So then I had complete peace w/ accepting this medicade. So I spent the day on the phone figuring out the new doctors and moving records around. We havent been to the new dr. yet but its in the "big city". I checked it out and well its not going to be... well better like this... " toto were not in Kansa anymore" that is for sure. But I have complete peace about it. Its all very weird.
I heard this phrase "everything in the kingdom is upside down" well I believe there is a "shift"taking place now! Here! My family. I keep hearing this over and over again" Get ready for a shift" .
Now the next part I am going to share w/ you - I feel like I should but please- do not take pity or whatever I just feel there is someone that needs to read this. These last 3 weeks have been the most intense finacially we have gone through. I'm not really sure because its been worse. A good friend asked me "so hows it going?" BOY was that the wrong thing to say to me. I was like bla blba bla about healthcare and bills and money and in between all of that I was like " I felt like the Lord said to me "Ask me where I want to take the "biz". and bla bla bla. So my friend was like uh are you applying that to your own situation at home w/ money and bills and whatever....?
um yea um NO! WOW was that like turning on the lightbulb. Thankyou friend for being obeidiant to the Lord and what you are sensing. Papa has so been triing to convey this to me and I sooooo just was not getting this. Man did I repent on my knees. And so the next couple of weeks we have been livin on total faith. And I am so thankful of Gods grace on me. All I can say is we have had no money to buy food and my oven is down and that was all offered to be taken care of this week. I cant think of next week but I am trusting in the Lord for today and next week he will take care of that too. Its a growing list of things that need fixed or replaced or whatever... I am seeking him first - his kingdom. I think this all a must in order to "shift". I have never been in this place before. Its extrememly uncomfortable. But I have this very weird peace. ( which is totally God) but its also extrememly exhilarating. not sure if that makes sence at all but.... thats just where we are at. Well thats it for now. There really is so much more to share - oh wait 1 more thing. The last 2 years i have been waking up at 3:40- which I felt meant complete trial. This past spring there was a "shift" to 3:41. complete the fullness of promises. And these past couple of weeks its been crazy stuff like 11:11 change change and 11:41 and 1:11 and every combo of these #"s . I felt like I was getting a little obsessed about it and I have been triing not to look at the clock and so when I do its been these #'s only. And Ive seen them other places- like my pager at church this past saturday and the total at the grocery store or I dont even remember. I feel like our family is cresting - at the point of breakthrough. I am declaring it! I know it will come. ok now I'm done.
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