I just have to share my latest adventure with you. Not sure why because really it was slightly embarrassing but hey I can laugh at myself. This past weekend was my youngest sons birthday. Cooper turned 4. He is an amazing little guy. Born 8 weeks early and fought for 40 days in the nicu and was completely healed by Jesus! We actually celebrated his birthday twice. Saturday afternoon we had a small party and then yesterday we went to Philly where we celebrated with his cousin who turned 3. We took all the kids to this indoor park called Arnolds. It was like a huge arcade. Go carts, laser tag, video games, carasols, trains, froggers and big bouncey things. It was a massive wharehouse for kids of all ages. So we let the kids go nuts and bounce and race and do all the crazy fun rides. They had a blast!
After all the fun my husband and sister-in -law thought it would be a great idea to race on some high tech very fast go-carts. I was like umm yea ok -no thanks. But they didnt seem to listen to me - I just got the look from my love ... you know the look don't you? The look was like the look of your doing it and your going to like it and I'm going to beat you and this will be really fun "look".
So we waited in line FOR-EVER and all the other kids actually got to ride before us on the slower carts. Then it was our turn. I just realized today that I actually never drove one of these before. I've driven some slow ones but not these in an actual race on an actual track that was CRAZY. My husband was laughing at me because 1st of all I don't think I was actually tall enough to drive but I don't think they are very strict w/ there rules. So they gave me a booster seat. Yep a booster seat. That should have been the 1st sign to just turn around and leave. But no I stuck w/ it.
The race began and my husband was in front of me and my sister-in-law was behind me and 4 other drivers. I could hear my sister yelling "step on the gas" - I was. These go-carts are battery powered so they all must have different speeds. She flew past me and was triing to beat her brother. His cart was way too fast. I was just triing to figure how to drive this thing. It did not turn very well and everyone was passing me. Obviously you cant take the corners like you do in Mario Kart. I tried sliding around a corner- well that left me in a complete 180 facing the wrong direction. When I realized what I did I started screaming because here came all the other drivers. They must have all the drivers on video becasue out of no where came some guys running to turn me around. I somehow got stuck on the wall. So off I went again. That probably was my 2nd mistake. I kept going except a tad slower. As I rounded the next lap I made my 3rd mistake and looked over at all my adoring fans ( my kids were cheering me on) and as I took the next sharp turn I didn't see someone was behind me and sorta jerked my wheel and someone was triing to pass me and collided with me and smashed me into the wall. I was completely stunned. Then when I saw who smashed me I was not very happy. Who do you think it was? It was my husband. And did he stop to make sure I was ok? Nope! I was completely in tears and pain. That did not feel very good. This was suppose to be fun and not dangerous. Apparently I missed the sign "Drive at your own risk". So out popped one of the track hands. He looked down at my face and my tears and said " are you done"? all pitiful like. I thought about it. I was sitting there and I was like No! I am not quitting! Something just sorta rose up inside of me. I AM NOT QUITTING. I HAVE NOT COME THIS FAR TO QUIT!
I did finish the race. I was burning up! I am not a quitter and I don't like to thrown out of the race. Can you relate? I felt like this was a paralle moment in my life. I felt this righteous anger well up in me and it pushed me forward. I know as I continued in the race I could have quit at anytime. I could have just jetted out the exit. No one would have blamed me. Actually everyone probably would have said "thank God".
I probably should have servere whiplash. I hit the wall pretty hard. I felt a shock go comletely through my body. Last night as I went to bed very sore I asked my hubby to forgive me - I'm not going to lie to you - I was upset with him and I had to repent for my attitude. Then I asked him to pray for me. I felt actually better in the morning- well at least body wise.
Before I went to sleep last night I was laying on my bed just talking to God and of course one of my comments was..."Lord please don't ever let me think that go-carts would ever be a great idea again" but as I sat there thinking of why was I so mad at my husband after it happened. Then I remembered what Pastor Dave said in his message the day before. Quote: People that are angy are that way because they are scared.
Now I am not an angry person at all but whenever the kids or my husband get rough like when they are playing around and I get hurt- I get upset. It was one of those learning moments- you know one of those moments that Papa shows you and then teaches you through it. Yep that was totally that.
I don't want any obstacle that will hold me back from knowing more of Jesus. I don't want anything to hold up or get in the way of my intimacy with him.
Holy Spirit come , check me, remove any root or seed that is not from you and that will hinder our relationship. Amen.
Monday, March 15, 2010
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Momentum.... its beginning.
Well this is week 5 of Preschool and probably the best week so far. Momentum. Says it. Saturday nights and Sunday mornings are so completely different. Like night and day and thats probably why. This past week I heard the Lord say "Jump in the river". Its beginning. I am telling you. The children are beginning to see pictures. Today a young gal (well they are all young) had a picture of a gift and it was purple well of course it was - when I asked her what color it was I knew she was going to say purple - why? its the color of royalty and Jesus was giving out gifts. Ha Ha is that not exciting. Ok so it does get better. During our lesson I was praying over the children for there ears to be open so they could hear Jesus and after I finished with the last little fellow ( I know I know they are all little ) one of the other little guys came stumbling over to me and he was like " I'm all dizzy" Ha Ha! So I was like " hey the Holy Spirit is here and is all over you- lay down" Then I had like 4 kids laying on the floor face down. Ha Ha I so kid you not. Then it was over. Oh boy its going to get good. I'm so excited I just can't hide it.....
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Preschool - wild and wooly
So this is week 4 for me in my new ministry "the Preschool". It has been an up and down wild and wooly rollercoaster these past weeks. Thank you Lord for all your encouragement you have sent and all of your grace on me. Can I just tell you that the kids truly are amazing! We don't give them enough credit. They are soooo sensitve to the spirit.
Today in worship all the kids were jumping up and down to the music. Compared to the first week - they all just stood there and looked at me and wondered what planet I just flew in from. And when I ask them if Jesus showed them anything they are all starting to say "hey I saw this or that". There is just a sweet peace beginning to fill the rooms and the hallways. I feel like every week a new wall is being brought down. You can just sence it. This was our 4th week of walking around our Jericho. Instead of it getting easier it is actually getting harder. The great thing of working with this age- the kids emotions are written all over their face. As we march around - we are warring a spirtual battle and the children are like a reflection of what is going on in the spiritual realm. Today as we marched it was like marching through mud. It was dreadful. We were like pulling them (not literally). They marched slow and it was very somber. The first child had this look on his face that was like one who looked like he was dreading it and ready to step in poop. Its very interesting (well to me I guess). We have 3 more weeks of marching and the last week we are going to celebrate with shofars and worship.
I feel like everyday God is showing me something about the preschool and giving me ideas. So as he downloads to me I am triing to obey.
Today in worship all the kids were jumping up and down to the music. Compared to the first week - they all just stood there and looked at me and wondered what planet I just flew in from. And when I ask them if Jesus showed them anything they are all starting to say "hey I saw this or that". There is just a sweet peace beginning to fill the rooms and the hallways. I feel like every week a new wall is being brought down. You can just sence it. This was our 4th week of walking around our Jericho. Instead of it getting easier it is actually getting harder. The great thing of working with this age- the kids emotions are written all over their face. As we march around - we are warring a spirtual battle and the children are like a reflection of what is going on in the spiritual realm. Today as we marched it was like marching through mud. It was dreadful. We were like pulling them (not literally). They marched slow and it was very somber. The first child had this look on his face that was like one who looked like he was dreading it and ready to step in poop. Its very interesting (well to me I guess). We have 3 more weeks of marching and the last week we are going to celebrate with shofars and worship.
I feel like everyday God is showing me something about the preschool and giving me ideas. So as he downloads to me I am triing to obey.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
A New Adventure
2010 has and will bring many changes to our household. It has been an exciting journey into the new year. As we closed out 2009 we were in better shape financially then we had been in probably 2 years. Yea God! We seeded fianacially for provision to break forth and it did! We have had several snow storms also that brought work for my husband and has increased the cash flow. Yea God!
As of January 1st I started in a new position- a ministry actually. I was asked to become the Director of Preschool at my church. I am so excited about this opportunity to minister to the young children. God has been downloading so much to me in the past month about where he wants to take this age group. I have had many prophetic dreams about this in the past several years- not realizing it was pointing at this until now and also several dreams after I accepted the position.
I would like to share one of the dreams I had just recently. I was at a conference of some sort and there were people of great leadership there. ( I am only 4"11 so I am short but in this dream I was also very short and everyone else towered over me) As we gathered at this convention there was some sort of disturbance and we had to have a venue change immediatley. So everyone scattered to their cars. As I looked at everyones cars lined up they were all convertible luxury sportcars and everyone getting into the cars were acting like they were authority. They had weapons attached to there hips. It was very alarming. Here I was standing at my super hardtop big wheeled red jeep. Sorta feeling out of place. Just then a very friendly and handsome man was standing beside me smiling into my eyes and said - "I want to ride with you." "ummm well ok... I guess - I don't have a fancy converible or anything." So as we left and drove down the road the Director of the Childrens Ministry and the Assistant Director were riding in my jeep. As we were driving down the road I noticed it was a dirt road and I went to make a right hand turn but it wasn't a road it was a rest stop and I pulled out again and Bethany said" Kelly why not stop there and you can go swimming." Then I continued to drive looking for the right turn.
The impression of this dream to me was: At one point people were armed with authority to take their minstry in a certain direction/place but God is changing the direction and place and he is equipping me to go down roads less traveled and I might not have a fancy vehicle but He is equipping me with a vehicle that is built for durability and roughness and to go where we haven't gone before or very often. The guy -I believe was an angel.
To me this dream was confirming my calling right now. This is my 3rd weekend running the preschool and it has been totally exciting. I feel there are many walls that need to come down and God is tearing them down every week. He has really laid on my heart to teach the children to worship prophetically. So we are doing dance and soaking worship - currently. The kids are starting to get it. I have been able to pray with children weekly. Last week God healed a little guys chin that was hurting. Yea God! Each week I can see the handprint of our Father emerging on the children and this past week I kept hearing wildfire. There is a stirring that has started! I can't believe I have a front row seat! Whoo hoo! I would like to post more but for now I hope this gets your senses tingling!
As of January 1st I started in a new position- a ministry actually. I was asked to become the Director of Preschool at my church. I am so excited about this opportunity to minister to the young children. God has been downloading so much to me in the past month about where he wants to take this age group. I have had many prophetic dreams about this in the past several years- not realizing it was pointing at this until now and also several dreams after I accepted the position.
I would like to share one of the dreams I had just recently. I was at a conference of some sort and there were people of great leadership there. ( I am only 4"11 so I am short but in this dream I was also very short and everyone else towered over me) As we gathered at this convention there was some sort of disturbance and we had to have a venue change immediatley. So everyone scattered to their cars. As I looked at everyones cars lined up they were all convertible luxury sportcars and everyone getting into the cars were acting like they were authority. They had weapons attached to there hips. It was very alarming. Here I was standing at my super hardtop big wheeled red jeep. Sorta feeling out of place. Just then a very friendly and handsome man was standing beside me smiling into my eyes and said - "I want to ride with you." "ummm well ok... I guess - I don't have a fancy converible or anything." So as we left and drove down the road the Director of the Childrens Ministry and the Assistant Director were riding in my jeep. As we were driving down the road I noticed it was a dirt road and I went to make a right hand turn but it wasn't a road it was a rest stop and I pulled out again and Bethany said" Kelly why not stop there and you can go swimming." Then I continued to drive looking for the right turn.
The impression of this dream to me was: At one point people were armed with authority to take their minstry in a certain direction/place but God is changing the direction and place and he is equipping me to go down roads less traveled and I might not have a fancy vehicle but He is equipping me with a vehicle that is built for durability and roughness and to go where we haven't gone before or very often. The guy -I believe was an angel.
To me this dream was confirming my calling right now. This is my 3rd weekend running the preschool and it has been totally exciting. I feel there are many walls that need to come down and God is tearing them down every week. He has really laid on my heart to teach the children to worship prophetically. So we are doing dance and soaking worship - currently. The kids are starting to get it. I have been able to pray with children weekly. Last week God healed a little guys chin that was hurting. Yea God! Each week I can see the handprint of our Father emerging on the children and this past week I kept hearing wildfire. There is a stirring that has started! I can't believe I have a front row seat! Whoo hoo! I would like to post more but for now I hope this gets your senses tingling!
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